Is this a farewell or ???

another tough and sad night that we have to get through it...

yeah...

another meeting that we have to spend with full of consideration...

for me it's really lucky to have him as our plump-advisor for our meeting...

he knows how to get our attention..

everyone's respect him...

that's what we need to be our leader but we can't do anything about it due to his busy schedule...

in conclusion for our meeting...

I meant...

we had an event that really need our full attention and commitment...

but for him as our plump-advisor...

the things that our club itself lack is that commitment and trust among all of us...

because of this...

almost all of us wanna walk away from this event...

even for me...

I don't have any more confidence to continue this event..

it's really has so many problem that we are going to face in the future...

not to mention that I'm being pessimist...

but it's true...
I've never thought about this before...
but after he explained everything...
now I realize "yaaa... it is gonna be fail if we are going to enforce it" 

if...
if this event is going to be cancelled in the future...
I might be walk away...
I'm not sure...
but now my heart is really full of consideration if this event gonna be restructure again...
I might not be part of this event any more... 
whuuaaaaa....
I'm going to cry...
I don't know...
but for sure..
I do love this club...
we've done so many event together...
we've achieved so many things too...
start from the first event that we've been in it...
until the last meeting that I have attended...
feels like really hard for me to walk away...
but maybe I have to...
but let's see what is going to happen in the future...

I know god is going to give the best decision for me...
really hope for the best...
"finger cross...

It's hard to get now...