Tuesday 11 December 2012

Tanah surga...katanya...

Today I would like to talk a little bit about my country...
Yupp...
Indonesia!
hurraaaaayyyy.... :) :) 

I was born and raised in Indonesia...
real Indonesian!!!

I admit that Indonesia before and after is completely different...
but lemme tell ya...
this is the first time during my wander-about in another country...
watched such a great great  and inspired movie that really touched me...
I watched about 2 movie in a day....
and both of them really really really make me thinking...
yes...
"where there is a will there is a way..."
that is the best quote of the day that really touched me during movie time...
it's not like I've never heard it...
but the way they implement the quote is the point...
it's really amazed me...
here is the link...
Tanah surga...katanya...

and this is another great movie that is really recommended by me....
Negeri 5 menara...

don't you ever miss this movie...
have a great day Indonesia... <3

Thursday 6 December 2012

Desperation...

Yeah...
been thinking that I might be not in the right track....
uhhmm...you know what I mean...
yupp...
doing such a thing but ended up with nothing....
I mean....
I love this kind of thing so much...
bridge..new building and the things that related to it....
been spending with this more than 2 years doing what I've been doing...
yeah...
I was in a great uhhm well...
you can say it as Passion...
have had this passion about "building" things since I was in the high school...
but now...
it was just all disappeared like ash...
Do I really have to do it???
Do I really need to move on with it???
or do I have to stop???
even if I choose to stop...
I have no where to go...
I mean...
I don't even have any path to  go...
I don't know what I like the most...
and what I really want to pursue...
have no idea at all...

where should I go...
where should I run to...
all of them are talking about it...
talking about how difficult this subject...
how suffering during this project...
and I can't even breath properly...
do I really suitable with this field even I like it so much??
does it means that something we "just" like have to be the thing that we have to pursue???
no passion...
no energy...
been thinking where is exactly my road???

too ashamed to talk to the beloved one...
they are the reason I've been hanging here...
I have no face that I can offer to them...


maybe you can conclude this as  a desperation without a problem...
than how come we can solve this desperation ...
if we don't even have the problem that cause it???

Wednesday 5 December 2012

MAMA 2012 and I'm A real VIP

for me...
I just knew about MAMA (Mnet Award) this year...
because big bang and others singer keep on talking about it...

for them as a singer, MAMA is the closing ceremony award that been waited by all Korean singer..
every year they all wait for this event...

and this year...YG family own the night...
not only they received the most award...
but they also did a great performance just like they always do...
yeah...YG family always make the best live performances all the time...
and for MAMA this year...
as one of VIP (fans club for big bang ) I was so amazed with their performance...
It was really DOPE!!!!!
I don't have any word to describe it...
totally speechless...
I don't know how to explain it...
och my gosh...
TOP with his pinky outfit and his killer eyes...
daesung with his Greyish hair and unique microphone...
G-dragon with his red hair and totally into it...
and the cutest member young bae...
with his B-boy style like he always do...
not to forget the recent member who cause some scandal...
seungri with his white outfit and his mask...
whooaaaaa....
really really really DAEBAK!!!!.

here is the performance...
 Fantastic Baby
and also...
Crayon

Congratulation for YG family...
Artist of the year and song of the year,,,
2012 is daebak!!!! :) :)


Monday 29 October 2012

everything change !!!!

what did I do ???
this question keep spinning in my head...

whooaaa...
why they are so cruel to me ?? 
why ??? 
I just wondering...
uhmm...
no one to talk to...
there is no one for me to talk to...
acchhh...
been crying for the past few days...
aachhh....


Friday 19 October 2012

rainy season

aah...
it's been awhile the rain keep pouring this mother earth...
yah...
rainy season is coming...
and homesick is still sticking in me...
been suffering from this disease and can stand up properly...
I keep on eating something that keep me from this sadness...
I just wanna survived....
wanted to call my mom so badly...
but I can't...
I don't wanna cry when I talk to her...
I don't wanna make her worry about me...
I just wanna quit from this academy things!!!...
it's so tough and I can't bear with it any more ..  
been so sick inside me and I can't even have the courage to attend any class...
I don't even have classmate who used to help me just like before...
ahh...
been crying for the past few days...
and also been smiling to cover up that I'm ok in front of people ...
och...
yah...
I'm not ok...
I do really not ok...

it's so tough to pretend like nothing happen...
the final exam is around the corner...
can I survive till the end...
please help me god...

mom...
I miss you so badly...
T_T

Wednesday 17 October 2012

gloomy and messy day !!!

do you ever feel like running away?? just suddenly leaving . 
no note...no warning... just getting your shit and leaving...
for me right now the feeling is real...
I just wanna run away with my music...
take train...
buses and just go to nowhere to be found...
I just want to run where no one will know where I am...
And when I get there...
the first thing that I wanna do is crying....
just stay there until I feel better...
It's been so tough for me...
I think I need a psychologist  right now...
or someone who can cheer me up....
och gosh...
It's so hard...
so so so hard...
I know god..
I know I can't complain anything to you..
I have to be thankful  no matter what is happening...
but can you just hug me tight this time...
I just don't know where should I stand...
I am  lost god ...
ahh...
what should I do???
T_T



Friday 5 October 2012

Fun and hilarious

here are some great saying and quotes that's really catch my eyes... :) 



Lol... :P



so damn true...
it's just another way to say "get lost"
lol











lol


yes!!!! damn true!!!

Wednesday 3 October 2012

Is this a farewell or ???

another tough and sad night that we have to get through it...
yeah...
another meeting that we have to spend with full of consideration...
for me it's really lucky to have him as our plump-advisor for our meeting...
he knows how to get our attention..
everyone's respect him...
that's what we need to be our leader but we can't do anything about it due to his busy schedule...
in conclusion for our meeting...
I meant...
we had an event that really need our full attention and commitment...
but for him as our plump-advisor...
the things that our club itself lack is that commitment and trust among all of us...
because of this...
almost all of us wanna walk away from this event...
even for me...
I don't have any more confidence to continue this event..
it's really has so many problem that we are going to face in the future...
not to mention that I'm being pessimist...
but it's true...
I've never thought about this before...
but after he explained everything...
now I realize "yaaa... it is gonna be fail if we are going to enforce it" 

if...

if this event is going to be cancelled in the future...
I might be walk away...
I'm not sure...
but now my heart is really full of consideration if this event gonna be restructure again...
I might not be part of this event any more... 
whuuaaaaa....
I'm going to cry...
I don't know...
but for sure..
I do love this club...
we've done so many event together...
we've achieved so many things too...
start from the first event that we've been in it...
until the last meeting that I have attended...
feels like really hard for me to walk away...
but maybe I have to...
but let's see what is going to happen in the future...



I know god is going to give the best decision for me...
really hope for the best...
"finger cross...








It's hard to get now...


Sunday 30 September 2012

Had A great day :) :)

whoooaaa...
deabaaaaaakk...
I've really had a  great day...
can't wait to talk about it...
but not now...
soooonn....
too tired...
:( :( :(
but thank you god....
thank you for today...
and thank you for everything that you've been giving me so far...
I'm really bless...:) :) :) :)

Ps: thank you penang for your kindness...
the show is totally awesome... :) :) 

Friday 28 September 2012

life must goes on


I am just going to share you a little bit of "life quotes"...
no story...no chit chat....no... there are nothing...
I'm just tired ....
T_T
hope tomorrow will have a better day...




now I have no place to stand...







yeah...
my life goes on...
I dont wanna stuck in the same spot...

stay strong because allah has more way to brighten up your life...
just be thankful...
:) :)




Thursday 13 September 2012

tough month..tough week...tough day and thanks god I'm still alive :) :)

it's been almost four months I've never updated this blog. whuaaaahhh...
(maybe I'm not the type of people who like to write anything on the blog.. lol )

but today I would like to share a little bit about my days...
start from this month...
September is just started, but It's going tough and tougher everyday...
started with my dad was admitted to hospital which was I knew it really really late!!
(it was my biggest mistake thou T_T)
and  I don't wanna talk about it why it happened ...
I called my mom early in the morning after I received the news via message...
I cried out loud and felt that I'm a bad daughter that just called her and my dad after a few hours my dad was admitted...
 I felt really sad that morning which was lead me to dreamy almost the whole day...
but thanks to you god that my father is recovered really fast even if the illness makes me shock like hell...
in a few days later someone who I trust the most was lied to me...
I was like "och my gosh...did he and she really did this to me??"
I kept on saying "really"  for a thousand times in one day...
that night we was so worried like hell !!!
but they kept on lying and lying to us...
they asked everyone to kept their mouth if one of us trying to ask where the hell they was...
they ASKED EVERYONE!!
they lied to me!!!
I was like wanna scream out loud in front of them but I dont have the right to do it...
I'm just a sister-no-blood-relation to them who worried like hell...
whooaaa...
I feel so emotion...
luckily they know that,this is the biggest mistake that really change me...

I dont know why...
but I hate it if someone lie to me especially if they are the people that I trust the most...
I really need more time to repair a feeling of betrayed and deceived...
I just need to be alone right now...
and I was wondering...
why this world really full of drama???
why???
I just don't get it !!!!
why some people can live their life with full of drama and full of lie !!!!
why why??

but thanks god...
from this situation I've learned which one from them is deserved my concern...
deserve my kindness...
and again...
thanks god I'm still alive even if they almost kill me with this drama...
:) :) :)

Wednesday 18 April 2012

Running Man part 1

it's been a few week since I am falling in love with Korean drama and Korean variety shows.
for drama, it's quite long time ago that I've been watching it until now,
but for variety shows it's just few weeks ago,
it's started when one of my friend keep telling me about one of Korean variety show that really make her advertise it like someone who get paid by them (like Korean variety shows company like SBS or CBS ,,,lol).
she told me that you will get addicted to this variety show.
I've been curious since that time she told me about it, but never asked the video.
and finally I got to watch it,,,
like my friend told me,,,
I've addicted to this variety show,,,
I've been watching it several times with not-so-little episode,,,
yeah recently the episode about 90,,,
waiting for the 91,,,
really can't wait,,,
it will broadcast every monday,,,
now let me introduce you the casts of running man!!! (really excited)

1.yu jae suk
   he is the MC for this variety show.he also well known as yoroce willis and grasshopper.
he is so kind hearted person, I do really like him,,,
he also really a honest person, everyone in  running man like him,,,





 2.Ha-Ha
    every cast in the running man call him  with haroro because he really look like pororo,,,
or they even call him haroro play boy, it happened cause when running man has a female guest,he always make direct confession to them. he is such a funny guy. know how to make everyone laugh.he is the symbol of great spy,,,

3.song joong ki
  he is well known as flower joong ki because of his face.he really like ji hyo noona. and that's make him an enemy of gary.he really has a weird habit during the filming. he like to say something funny spontaneous. he is a really good friend with gwang so because of their same age. and i feel kinda sad when he left running man for his acting career and he promise to come back with a better person!!! cant wait to see you again flower joong ki!!!!



4.Lee Gwang Soo
   he is well known as gwangvatar and giraffe. he always get bullied by all of the member cast.everyone like to make a fool of him and that's make him an alliance with ji suk jin that they call it as easy brother but for citizen and others fans call  them dumb and dumber.he totally afraid of jong kook,,,



5.kim jong kok
    I love this guy,he really has a great manner toward female guest and every female in his entire life.he knows how to treat them well.such as lovely and husband-on-the-list. he is well known as sparta kokie. everyone afraid of him because of his strength,,, when he speak everyone will be in the silent mode suddenly,and when he meet guest who is older then him, he always bow 90 degree directly without hesitation,,,and the important thing when he start to sing every girls heart will melt without doubt.
I like his song especially the song that he sing with gary!!!! love it so much,,,  


6.kang gary
   I LOVE HIM so much!!!
he is the symbol of a great guy,his love for song ji hyo will always be hers,,,,
he never give up about his love.I like when monday couple take their action,,,
and I love his song too!!! he is such a great rapper,,,
love love leessang's song!!!!

7.song ji hyo
   she is the only girl in the running man.all of the member really take good care of her.
but everyone like to call her as mong ji hyo that refers as blank ji hyo.it happen because she always show a blank face when she doesn't understand about something, and she really lucky to have a guy who always take good care of her specially kang gery!!! 


 8.ji suk jin
   the last but not the least,,,the one and only one ji suk jin hyung,,,
he is the symbol of the weakness member all the time.never get chance to have revenge to  those who always bullied him.when he even had once chance,he never succeed.that's make him become more pitiful person in the running man.


I love to watch everything that related to those member.
their movie.their song, their MV,,,,
even their advertisement.
I think i'm kinda addicted to everything about Korea.
drama,movie,song,boyband,girlband even now their country and korean language!!!
i feel like wanna learn it,,,
yeah,,
will start to learn korean language next sem,,,
hope i can make it!!!
whuaiting!!!

ps: wait for my next post about running man!!!






Sunday 18 March 2012

these past few days

it's been a week i haven't written anything,,,
yeah,,,
it's not that i don't have time,,
but i do really not in a good mood,,
hardly being push to my limit with those bad behaviour of hers,,,
would like to talk about it soon,,
after I recover my feeling toward her,,
I do really hate a girl who trying to be cute,,
but actually ended up being a slut,,,
sorry,,
but I cant hold it back any more,,
hufft,,
I promise will talk about this soon,,,

Wednesday 7 March 2012

Stop kony 2012

maybe you have no idea what the hell is kony,,,
It's difficult for me to explain everything about him,,
it's also really painful to look at his action to our youth,,,
so I just give you one LINK that can explain everything,,
maybe for you 29 minutes it's too long,,
but trust me,,
it's worth watching,,,
just spend a little bit of your 24hours to this kind of the most inspired video ever,,,
you won't be regret,,,
:)
and after i watched this video,,
i got one phase that really really great,,,
that is "THE PLACE WHERE YOU LIVE SHOULDN'T DETERMINE WHETHER YOU LIVE"
let's action talk,,,


and one more thing,,,
they have thins kind of STORE that sell t-shirt, bracelet and poster of  Kony,,,

I really really want it so badly,,
but I dont know how to purchase it,,
too bad,,,

nb: please watch it,,,it's not going to waste your time,,,
trust me,,,
sincere rizka :)




Sunday 4 March 2012

this feeling when it comes to nanananana

last night I was visited by my friends,,,
we were talking about anything,,
they complain about my room,,
they were so amazed,,,
hahahaha
because last time he visited my room was like a pig-pen...
how cruel he was that night,,,

told that my room used to messy all the time,,
but now he's so amazing with this transformation,,,
lol,,,
we also talked about a lot of movies,,,
we are movie lovers,,,
:)



and suddenly one on my girl friend "Y" saw the note that I stick it to the wall with words of encouragement,,,
then her hand feel itchy wanna write something too!!!
hahahahha
lets see the pictures of her hand writing,,,
:)


hahahahahaa
this note  stick to my wall beside my bed!!!
she wrote this because these 2 days I've been so in love with my bed so I don't wanna move at all,,
lol


this one is made by "my sister",,,
yaeah,,
she is my house mate that I already consider her as my little sister...
:)
ps: I always take bath dear sist,,,you know that :P 


this one also made by my girlfriend Y,,,
hhahahhah


hahahahahah
"Y" really hate korean drama even if she is a girl!!!
every girl loves korean drama!!!
lol


ahhahahaha
I told you,,,
I love my bed so much so that I really didn't move my ass to see the sun,,,
that's why she wrote this,,
thank youuu,,,
:P
btw cant you look at the clock??
it was almost 2 am!!! lol


here all of them,,,
:)

how nice my friend right??
how about you??
dont you have a nice friends too??
:)

Friday 2 March 2012

take care of us captain!!!

yesterday,,,
my friend gave me one of the Korean drama that she think is really worth watching,,,
I've gone trough the web that was given by her,,,
I found the title and started to to watch it,,
from the first episode until 9(the episode that I recently watch),
my eyes full of tears,,
I couldn't hold it,
the drama makes me cried like I'm the one who felt it,,
it's really touching,,,
the drama is about pilot,co-pilot and stewardess,,,
and I have the Favorite episode  that is episode 7,,
it's really moves my heart,,,
from that episode,,
I've a conclusion that is,,,
"even if you were being adoption and was raised by people that really doesn't have blood relative at all with you just  because your biological parent didn't want to raised you up,,,or you think that you were being thrown by them,,,and at the end they come to you and ask for your forgiveness,,,please don't ignore them!!! no matter how much you hate them,how much you wanna forget them,,,just listen them even for awhile,,
after that let them hug you if they are about to ask,
because they also have the right to hug you tight,,,
if it was not because of them, you re not brought into this world,
so forgive them and hug them tight as long as you can while they still alive,,,
because when god take them back to his side,,,
regret would stick together with you for the rest of your life and you've never live peaceful"


really thanks to her that suggested me this drama,,, 
please take good care of your parents,,,
because I'm going to do so,,,
I love my parent so much,,
no matter what they have done,,
really thanks to them  because they brought me into this beautiful world,,,
:) :)
love you mom and dad,,,
you are really mean to me!!!

Sunday 26 February 2012

few friends of mine

few weeks ago,,,
I found a good blog (again)!!!!
one of his/her story really inspired me,,,

he/she had shared about a few friends of hid/her with different background and behaviour,,,
now I would like to share a few friends of mine too,,,


I have a friend who really has a low profile,,,
who always be thankful for everything that he has,,,
he is wealthy enough but never showed it up,,,
and really has a helping hand for us,,,


and I have another friend,,,
who always makes people around her being underestimate,,,
she is so stubborn and selfish,,
also never wanna admit her own mistake,,,
always wanna be a perfect person,,,
and nobody likes her but we keep in silent,,,


I have few friends that really too honest,,,
they sometimes made my day,,,
has a great spirit for everything,,,
food,sport,joke,and sometimes they can be a great family,,
they've never made me feels like being betray or lonely,,


and I have a friend that really good in hiding her/his feeling,,,
it doesn't matter how people acted  around him/her,,,
she/he really has a unstable mood,,,
when he/she is in a good mood,,
we can feel the fresh air,,
but when the bad mood come,,,
fire like hell would be in the air,,,,
we cant even touch her/him,,,


so don't you think I have a lot of friends,,,
a lot of friends with different thought,,,
and big different in behaviour???
:) :)

Thursday 23 February 2012

heaven-earth

here some of the best place ever that we should visit,,,,
feels like wanna visit them all,,,
hahahahahahah




Bora-bora island- French 


Canada,,,


lake josephine,montana,,,


meteora, Greece,,,


moraine lake,,,


new Brighton


north atoll, Maldives


north Italy,,,


qeenstown,new Zealand,,,



south Greece,,


and here some of the best place but I dont know its name,,,







quit awesome,,,
:) 
I like the last one,,,
it's real you know,,,
it's not only in the fairytale,,,
might wanna try this awesome house,,
:)