gloomy and messy day !!!

do you ever feel like running away?? just suddenly leaving . 
no note...no warning... just getting your shit and leaving...
for me right now the feeling is real...

I just wanna run away with my music...

take train...

buses and just go to nowhere to be found...

I just want to run where no one will know where I am...

And when I get there...

the first thing that I wanna do is crying....

just stay there until I feel better...

It's been so tough for me...

I think I need a psychologist  right now...

or someone who can cheer me up....

och gosh...

It's so hard...

so so so hard...

I know god..

I know I can't complain anything to you..

I have to be thankful  no matter what is happening...

but can you just hug me tight this time...

I just don't know where should I stand...

I am  lost god ...

ahh...
what should I do???
T_T

Fun and hilarious

here are some great saying and quotes that's really catch my eyes... :) 

Lol... :P

so damn true...

it's just another way to say "get lost"
lol

lol

yes!!!! damn true!!!

Is this a farewell or ???

another tough and sad night that we have to get through it...

yeah...

another meeting that we have to spend with full of consideration...

for me it's really lucky to have him as our plump-advisor for our meeting...

he knows how to get our attention..

everyone's respect him...

that's what we need to be our leader but we can't do anything about it due to his busy schedule...

in conclusion for our meeting...

I meant...

we had an event that really need our full attention and commitment...

but for him as our plump-advisor...

the things that our club itself lack is that commitment and trust among all of us...

because of this...

almost all of us wanna walk away from this event...

even for me...

I don't have any more confidence to continue this event..

it's really has so many problem that we are going to face in the future...

not to mention that I'm being pessimist...

but it's true...
I've never thought about this before...
but after he explained everything...
now I realize "yaaa... it is gonna be fail if we are going to enforce it" 

if...
if this event is going to be cancelled in the future...
I might be walk away...
I'm not sure...
but now my heart is really full of consideration if this event gonna be restructure again...
I might not be part of this event any more... 
whuuaaaaa....
I'm going to cry...
I don't know...
but for sure..
I do love this club...
we've done so many event together...
we've achieved so many things too...
start from the first event that we've been in it...
until the last meeting that I have attended...
feels like really hard for me to walk away...
but maybe I have to...
but let's see what is going to happen in the future...

I know god is going to give the best decision for me...
really hope for the best...
"finger cross...

It's hard to get now...

Had A great day :) :)

whoooaaa...
deabaaaaaakk...
I've really had a  great day...
can't wait to talk about it...
but not now...
soooonn....
too tired...
:( :( :(
but thank you god....
thank you for today...
and thank you for everything that you've been giving me so far...
I'm really bless...:) :) :) :)
Ps: thank you penang for your kindness...
the show is totally awesome... :) :) 

life must goes on

I am just going to share you a little bit of "life quotes"...
no story...no chit chat....no... there are nothing...

I'm just tired ....

T_T

hope tomorrow will have a better day...

now I have no place to stand...

yeah...

my life goes on...

I dont wanna stuck in the same spot...

stay strong because allah has more way to brighten up your life...

just be thankful...
:) :)

tough month..tough week...tough day and thanks god I'm still alive :) :)

it's been almost four months I've never updated this blog. whuaaaahhh...
(maybe I'm not the type of people who like to write anything on the blog.. lol )

but today I would like to share a little bit about my days...
start from this month...
September is just started, but It's going tough and tougher everyday...
started with my dad was admitted to hospital which was I knew it really really late!!
(it was my biggest mistake thou T_T)
and  I don't wanna talk about it why it happened ...
I called my mom early in the morning after I received the news via message...
I cried out loud and felt that I'm a bad daughter that just called her and my dad after a few hours my dad was admitted...
 I felt really sad that morning which was lead me to dreamy almost the whole day...
but thanks to you god that my father is recovered really fast even if the illness makes me shock like hell...
in a few days later someone who I trust the most was lied to me...
I was like "och my gosh...did he and she really did this to me??"
I kept on saying "really"  for a thousand times in one day...
that night we was so worried like hell !!!
but they kept on lying and lying to us...
they asked everyone to kept their mouth if one of us trying to ask where the hell they was...
they ASKED EVERYONE!!
they lied to me!!!
I was like wanna scream out loud in front of them but I dont have the right to do it...
I'm just a sister-no-blood-relation to them who worried like hell...
whooaaa...
I feel so emotion...
luckily they know that,this is the biggest mistake that really change me...

I dont know why...
but I hate it if someone lie to me especially if they are the people that I trust the most...
I really need more time to repair a feeling of betrayed and deceived...
I just need to be alone right now...
and I was wondering...
why this world really full of drama???
why???
I just don't get it !!!!
why some people can live their life with full of drama and full of lie !!!!
why why??

but thanks god...
from this situation I've learned which one from them is deserved my concern...
deserve my kindness...
and again...
thanks god I'm still alive even if they almost kill me with this drama...
:) :) :)

Running Man part 1

it's been a few week since I am falling in love with Korean drama and Korean variety shows.
for drama, it's quite long time ago that I've been watching it until now,
but for variety shows it's just few weeks ago,
it's started when one of my friend keep telling me about one of Korean variety show that really make her advertise it like someone who get paid by them (like Korean variety shows company like SBS or CBS ,,,lol).
she told me that you will get addicted to this variety show.
I've been curious since that time she told me about it, but never asked the video.
and finally I got to watch it,,,
like my friend told me,,,
I've addicted to this variety show,,,
I've been watching it several times with not-so-little episode,,,
yeah recently the episode about 90,,,
waiting for the 91,,,
really can't wait,,,
it will broadcast every monday,,,
now let me introduce you the casts of running man!!! (really excited)

1.yu jae suk
   he is the MC for this variety show.he also well known as yoroce willis and grasshopper.
he is so kind hearted person, I do really like him,,,
he also really a honest person, everyone in  running man like him,,,

 2.Ha-Ha
    every cast in the running man call him  with haroro because he really look like pororo,,,
or they even call him haroro play boy, it happened cause when running man has a female guest,he always make direct confession to them. he is such a funny guy. know how to make everyone laugh.he is the symbol of great spy,,,

3.song joong ki

  he is well known as flower joong ki because of his face.he really like ji hyo noona. and that's make him an enemy of gary.he really has a weird habit during the filming. he like to say something funny spontaneous. he is a really good friend with gwang so because of their same age. and i feel kinda sad when he left running man for his acting career and he promise to come back with a better person!!! cant wait to see you again flower joong ki!!!!

4.Lee Gwang Soo

   he is well known as gwangvatar and giraffe. he always get bullied by all of the member cast.everyone like to make a fool of him and that's make him an alliance with ji suk jin that they call it as easy brother but for citizen and others fans call  them dumb and dumber.he totally afraid of jong kook,,,

5.kim jong kok

    I love this guy,he really has a great manner toward female guest and every female in his entire life.he knows how to treat them well.such as lovely and husband-on-the-list. he is well known as sparta kokie. everyone afraid of him because of his strength,,, when he speak everyone will be in the silent mode suddenly,and when he meet guest who is older then him, he always bow 90 degree directly without hesitation,,,and the important thing when he start to sing every girls heart will melt without doubt.
I like his song especially the song that he sing with gary!!!! love it so much,,,  

6.kang gary

   I LOVE HIM so much!!!
he is the symbol of a great guy,his love for song ji hyo will always be hers,,,,

he never give up about his love.I like when monday couple take their action,,,

and I love his song too!!! he is such a great rapper,,,

love love leessang's song!!!!

7.song ji hyo

   she is the only girl in the running man.all of the member really take good care of her.

but everyone like to call her as mong ji hyo that refers as blank ji hyo.it happen because she always show a blank face when she doesn't understand about something, and she really lucky to have a guy who always take good care of her specially kang gery!!! 

 8.ji suk jin
   the last but not the least,,,the one and only one ji suk jin hyung,,,
he is the symbol of the weakness member all the time.never get chance to have revenge to  those who always bullied him.when he even had once chance,he never succeed.that's make him become more pitiful person in the running man.

I love to watch everything that related to those member.

their movie.their song, their MV,,,,

even their advertisement.

I think i'm kinda addicted to everything about Korea.

drama,movie,song,boyband,girlband even now their country and korean language!!!

i feel like wanna learn it,,,

yeah,,

will start to learn korean language next sem,,,

hope i can make it!!!

whuaiting!!!

ps: wait for my next post about running man!!!